Saturday, August 26, 2006

And then you have those days like this...

That make you wonder why you even bothered getting out of bed today. Allow me a 2 second rant here- things are kind of crappy lately. The job thing is a total bummer. Unfortunately the office move did not improve some serious issues where I work. The company is not doing well at all and everyday we all wonder if that's the day we're going to get laid off. Ick. So I'm looking, and while it hasn't been hopeless, I haven't found a new place that I really want to work either. I'm really hoping to get laid off soon so I can collect some unemployment (benefits I've always paid into and never, ever collected on) and take a little break. But instead each day I'm continually surprised how things manage to get worse and worse, but not bad enough to close. And there I am still employed and having to find a way to drag my butt in the next day. To this crappy, crappy job. Yep, it really sucks.

Add into this situation the bad news I got this morning. My grandmother on my dad's side passed away today. She was very old and lived a very full life. Although she had been failing and bedridden for quite awhile she was always very much the matriarch of that side of my family. It's just a sad, sad thing and unfortunately no matter how well you prepare for it, it doesn't make it any easier when it happens.

So I'm trying to keep a handle on things, doing what I need to do, which is a lot of stuff I really don't feel like doing at all. Which is something that seems to make me feel more crappy. So I take a minute to sit down and try to do some knitting and relax and somehow I end up with this

Umm, yeah that's not making me feel much better either. This is a kit I have for a purse that I purchased at Stitches last year. I'd love to link to the company but I can't find anything about them online so I wonder if they're even around anymore. I zipped through the front and sides in no time earlier in the week, and now I just have to do this one last part, but the colorwork is tough. And it's making me curse. And sweat. And I don't really need the agita right now. So I'm going to put down the knitting for today and maybe when I come back to this it will somehow cease to look to me like the knitting equivalent of a car wreck.

Oh. Well.

Sorry for the whine all, hope your Saturday's are treating you better.


Sachi said...

Eh, whine all you want. You're entitled.

EK said...

I'm sorry to hear about your abuela. Hang in there Jana.

Tracy said...

Jana I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. Even when it's not a surprise it's still just as painful to lose a loved one.

As for your knitting, I think it looks great. What's the problem? It looks tough, but everything looks correct. For now, just knit a dishcloth, a nice simple quickly completed dishcloth.

Karin said...

I am sorry things aren't going well. I think the colorwork looks nice myself.

I had a crappy Saturday too. Had to wake up at 6 to go in to work from 8:15-2:30, then onto a stamping party (OK that part was fun) from 3-6, then off to teach a music lesson, only to have the train break down on the way home, and rather than a 45 minute commute, it was 90 mins, so I didn't get home till 9:30 tonight. :P

Dorothy said...

So sorry about your job and especially your grandmother. She sounds like a very dynamic woman.

Your knitting looks alright to me. Very cute.

Take care. I'll say a prayer for you.